I've just deleted the old unnecessary diaries
when suddenly I saw the one I wrote for you and her
How long has it happened?
three years I think......
I can never forget the day you told me "what if I say I love her?"
until now, I don't know why you said that, for just tested my reaction or told the truth
but that's not important now
the truth is that I lost you, my good friend, once you've been my special friend
Why you chose this way, you didn't know what you decided would lead to this kind of ending, right?
they said that you did not just treat me as a friend, but more than that
I didn't know then, but that's no use if I knew this
Did you betray me? I don't think so.....you were just unfaithful to this friendship
I didn't know my characteristic was the reason that you misunderstood my feeling
it's hurt now, even it has been three years, I don't know why I still feel hurt
your attitude? your behavior? I never think carefully for what you did for me
I always thought that the things you did for me and the things I did for you were normal in friends, especially we were such good friends
I saw the message you left for me
you told me not to think everything too seriously
did I? I don't think so
I just know that she didn't really want me to be your good friend
it was her that made so many midunderstandings between you and me
but I only thought that was because of her desease made her did so
what a suck!!
the most dirty thing in this world for me is that friends betray or cheat me
and that were the things she kept doing for me
why you chose her at last , I really don't know
is it just because she was so weak , so pain, so fragile?
so that I had to bear this kind of sorrow?????
I will never forget the happy time we had
I will never forget what you told me and what you did for me
what I really want is the friendship between you and me
but seems you want more than that
so.....that was the reason you give up...... I think
People always think that women looks tough and happy never cry, never be painful
who knows that it's just the appearance we protend before people
you didn't know why I quit my transfer examination, right
I could say the half reason was you
why I chose to work for one year and then back to school
why I couldn't get a good grade on the important exam
it was because of your decision and her attitude
it hurt me so much
friendship is the Achilles' heel to me
at that moment I thought you've ruined my life
you and her were the first one that made me feel terrible to make new friends
I couldn't really have a new friend for a long time
I couldn't even really to trust other people.......
you know how long I recovered from this painful thing?
no, you never know
I still feel a little bit hurt , that means I can't really forget this sore
although they think I am really happy and seems no worries
only I know that's not true
I don't know how long I should spend on this recovery
but I'll try
I've already listened to their suggestion, i've tried to connected you
but I didn't get your reply
since you did so, then I don't think I should stick on this problem anymore
Je ne te détesterai jamais, mais je pense que je t'oublierai 
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