:: Part of the conversation between fiq + anne ::
::
arm kta kn
abe 2 dia duk pk psai msa dpn dh
dia hold kak sbb dia akot bla dh jd serious nnt fmly dia reject
sbb psai brtudung ni la
so, sblom dia pon ssh nk wat kptsn ni
kak..lg la xtau nk wat cmna
psal fmly ni..ssh sket..trpulang pd pndgn fmly ar
fmly kak pon xska dia
tp sbb kak syg kt dia,fmly kak cba utk trima dia
if fmly dia xleh syg org yg dia syg
then kak pon xleh la nk wat pa
huh~
ssh...fmly or me? wawawa
dlu kak ingt bnda cmni sng ja
xprlu pk byk2
dlu kak hold dia, xnk kapel, sbb akot mnda cmni brlaku
akot kak xsggup lpskn dia klo pape brlaku
huh..tah2..trmkn jerat gak..adeh
tahla..mkin besaq, mkin byk mslh..
komitment..fmly..
syg ja xmnckupi rpa2nya..
pengorbanan harus bsar..
wawawa..
dlm kebingungan..
::
Saturday 12th sept 09
8 days we din contact
My heart keep crackin n bleedin
I knew that, I hv to start this
So, I woke up as usual..
Typin a long msg
Bout what u’ve done..to me..
N the reasons ofcoz
I double check with lyana
Then i continued
I get the reply after few hours..coz he’s slpin
While i wait for the reply
I’m inboxin’ mate in fb
I asked him did his mate fall for someone else
Coz from what i’ve see, he asked sue to wake him up for sahur
Mate said, he is waitin for my msg, if i din start msg, he wont msg me anymore
Ok..my heart..stop beating..it’s crackin deeper..
When i get the reply, he said he doesnt hv another gal
He had many frens that love him
Dat’s all
N finally i’d make the 1st move..not hard is it?
I was held..i dont know wat else i can reply him..
Dat’s all...
While in the other hand,
I’m goin to date with yem..
New fren,mutual fren of mayo..haa..
So,there was an argument,but i managed to get to queensbay by Fiq..
Thanx to dis lil bro..wawawa
Okay, after we met..i felt that..a bit of segan..
Hah..dis sengal’s guy suddnly nothing much to talk
We walked around and suggested me to some cloth that i think i m not suite with it
Haha
We bought movie ticket :: The Ugly Truth :: on 5.10pm
Then we sat down for an hour
Wawawa
He din talked much
Me neither
I was..too shy..haha
What i think of him in the first sight
He is Unimap stdent, perlis, stays at chemor, total 11 bro n sis..youngest,
Single parent, mum..mm..makes me think bout him again..
Hmm
:: he is not that short..taller than him abit.. 1 mark on - 0 mark
:: he is not hansome, yet, not ugly..okok.. 0 mark on - 1 mark
:: he is sengal.. 0 mark on – 1 mark
:: he is sweet.. 1 mark on – 1 mark
:: he is not talkative 0 mark on – 1 mark
:: he less sense of humor 0 mark on – 1 mark
:: he is understandin 1 mark on – 0 mark
:: he is weird 0 mark on – 0 mark
:: he cant make dicision 0 mark on – 1 mark
:: he is funny 1 mark on - 1 mark
:: he is brave 1 mark on – 0 mark
:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: total 5 marks on – 7 marks
>_< that’s y..he still cant win my heart
I was disgusted with myself when i was with him
When the movie is about to begun, abe called..i ignored the call
So, whole movie..i’m floating~
After movie, we search for food
But all restaurent fulled, we went to TGI Friday
Some of its food,contain alchohol..
I nvr been told that i cant go in to this kind of restaurant
So, i dont know..we just order something simpler
Fried macoroni cheese, n some tuscan chicken sanwhich with chips like that
With 2 desert..mocha latte..wawawa..i like this part..
He called for 2nd time..i knew that, i cant answer dis..so..i continued..
we enjoyed the dinner, chatting something bout fmly
Then, we took some pic..he is funny here..haha
mm..we become more close, as he put his hand over me
in the other words, it’s a hug..
i dont know what should i do
felt guilty to him..sorry..
i knew it was wrong, but i din refuse..
huh..i enjoyed this moment, but i knew that i only loved him
i’m just played with yem..no hard feelings, i really dont have feelings
i just wana enjoy the blind date
after meal, we went to fun fair
as i wana wait for syaz to come n fetch me
we played the octopus chair
my god, its horrible..
screamin all the time..
but it’s fun..
then, there’s a moonlite n beach moment
sat there..waiting..
i knew he is about to gv a kiss..my god..
luckily, still rasional..my heart still beating..
huh..
so, we ended this blind date, with a hand by hand
side by side, n gud bye..
fiq is worried wheather i reached yet,
omg..dont fall 4 me yah
haha..
but i was sweet n touching
mm
once i reach, i called paan
he asked me where i go n why din answer his call
i just din answer that poperly
i dont want him to know
g mna td?
Adala
Ngn spa?
Kwn
Kwn mna?
Adala
Xpala
mm..g queensbay td
xtnya pon
huh..kk bye
bla3
i went for bath
then he asked for a call
then we chat for half an hour
bout the msg that i sent this morning
bout his dicision
the dicision is still a hang for me
he dont want to continue anymore
he wana be frens..normal frens..
is it any possiblity to bcome a frens after this long road we passed?
After we hold our hand together
After all we did
After we kissed
Did u kiss your fren? I wish i could asked
He still waitin for my changes
I cant honey
I really cant
I love u
U love me
But we cant give commitment in this relationship
So how?
Although u sayin u wana stay as frens
But deep in your heart, u know that u care of wat i did
U cared arm touch my hp
U cared i date a guy
U cared bout me
U cared all
But u put it all aside
Make ur mind clear, u now, wants only changes in me
Sorry honey
i wish i could
i was desperate
i love u, but i cant do
hope u could see what’s in me
i knew that u think of future
but it’s the future of u n me
not ur fmly
if i change for u, it wont end happily
how i wish i could make u more happy
i wish i could tell u this
i wish u could understand
but..at the end..it’s the dicision
u wana wait for me?
Or i wait for u?
We’re not frens
U must know that
Coz
I love u
U love me
Let the love behind
It’s something heartless
Yet, maybe it’s the best for now
How i wish that i was lookin’ into ur eyes~
Farihan..
14th sept 09
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